goldenbunnies coming to you online!! numero uno, baby!

I feel better after the emotional start to the lesson. It was good to clear the air on some of the issues that our group was facing. We are working better as a team which is great. I’ve been practicing my physcial movements and feel I’ve got somewhere further. Also looking at my line thou I can’t speak perfectly and can’t remember long ones without a script but this was one walk home. So thats really great for me.

Still I feel stress and wish I could get rid of it but I’ll have to ignore especially when there’s nothing I can’t do anything about the feeling.

i really feel as if our group fell apart yesterday and many feelings were said but then again some things were left unsaid and hopefully in our next regroup they will be:) i still cant believe we’re performing in approximately 22 days! holy crapper! we’re performing in 22 days!!!! (by the way for all who are performing on tuesday that means less days!) yep! stress! stress!stress! did i mention that i’m stressed! anywho have fun in the sun-er…its raining! ok..well kiddies just have fun

xoxoxoxo

effie

anyways yes this is two blogs in one!

ashleigh needs a spark! i hate my group members being sad so this is a big hug! going out to ash! and anyone who reads this must ABSOLUTELY MUST!!! give ash a hug love love

xoxoxoooxoxooxxo

LOVE EFFIE XOXO

holy mother of all things holy.

today was..crazy. stressful. miserable.

i wish we lived in a Shakespearian world, so the weather outside could express just how i felt and i could go out in the rain and cry.

but no, instead i blew my fuse infront of numerous teachers/helpers/aids/fellow drama-ians and consequently was teary and moody for the rest of the day.

this sounds so freaking emotional but i just want to be raw and honest with how i’m feeling…i don’t want to bullshit and pretend everything is fine because i can’t work like that and if their is no trust or empathy or feeling in my group, there is nothing.

this is just sounding so general and…cliched i guess, but i just feel so drained. everything i do is drama. the 7.30 rehearsals, EVERY LUNCHTIME, afterschool is getting to me and i feel i have nothing to show for it.

i am sounding so grey but seriously, i don’t want to just crap on and say “ooh today was great i luvv my group so much yeaah woohooo luvvvd sc6″because i honestly feel nothing and that scares me. drama is “my thing”…and i’m just not feeling any connection. i also don’t care that other groups are reading this, or that avila is too…i just want this out there.

i know stuff will come together and on the night i will be as passionate and focused and as IN LOVE with drama as i usually am…but i feel my spark is out…and not just in drama, in every aspect of myself right now…

ENOUGH WALLOWING lol.

my group just really needs to polish, polish, polish and be HONEST!

and share the workload because currently the dynamics of our group are way out…which they always will be but we need to find the balance instead of me stressing as i feel worked to the bone and crying like a sissy all day lol.

thanks for listening, world…haha

i love you all, despite my moodiness and angst haha…love ashleigh

today was extremely stressful!our group basically fell apart today then thankfully we are back on track :)i think the stress is really getting to me and i really want our performances to be amazing! we organized a study/rehearsal timetable today which will hopefully keep us totally on track!i’m guessing it will- we’ve planned to have an hour rehearsal time before school everyday! and every lunch time and some after school rehearsals todays double was exciting! people cried people laughed but all and all we accomplished alot and i am proud of us! i predicted the double to be completely different and happy and stress free but it was totally different! but luckily now things are happy and less stressfull - the stress is still there though! oh the joys of year 12!!!! anyways have fun in the sun kiddies and i’ll see you all soonish!

p.s mount waverley rocks!

effie is awesome and is better than kate hahahha love love <3

This is Sarah first post and I am not sure to write. Um we going to do alot of reheasels during the school week and I’m glad I came up with a nice part for the play.

today was extremely stressful!our group basically fell apart today then thankfully we are back on track :)i think the stress is really getting to me and i really want our performances to be amazing! we organized a study/rehearsal timetable today which will hopefully keep us totally on track!i’m guessing it will- we’ve planned to have an hour rehearsal time before school everyday! and every lunch time and some after school rehearsals todays double was exciting! people cried people laughed but all and all we accomplished alot and i am proud of us! i predicted the double to be completely different and happy and stress free but it was totally different! but luckily now things are happy and less stressfull - the stress is still there though! oh the joys of year 12!!!! anyways have fun in the sun kiddies and i’ll see you all soonish!

p.s mount waverley rocks!